Friends ♥

Friends are something to cherish in this world. They're your shoulder to lean on when you are weak. Some of the best memories come from them.

if i had to choose between the world & Andrew, i would choose Andrew. Everytime. Its always gunna be him.

im so beyond hurt & anger that i dont know what to feel anymore

18

So yesterday i hit the big 18, & it feels different being an "adult"..here come the responsibilities. Time to grow up, get to work and accomplish bigger goals.

FFA convention today at MSU, excited! (:

the sweetest thing happened to me today..
so im at work today already not having a great day && this little girl comes in with her dad im guessing and she's just soo cheery talking about barbeque while i was exchanging their propane tank and as theyre walking away she says "we're having chicken!" (: it made me smile for one. then she runs back in here with a laffy taffy, runs up to me and hands it to me and says "Happy Easter!" and walks out. It Made My Day.

Andrew ♥

i love you more and more everyday. the more i cant stop thinking about you the bigger my smiles get. you make me feel like i never have before, wanted for who i am. i can be myself with you and not have to worry about getting judged or being cut down. i love that. i love who you are. i think you are a beautiful person. i would never ask you to change a thing about you ♥
i fell for you the hardest. you make me see things in a different aspect, & open up my imagination to let me see things differently. i like it. i am so in love with you. i could never imagine being without you for its like asking for the end. ill give you my heart & soul. body & mind. anything you want i want to give it to you. i wanna be the only one you turn to. your shoulder to cry on, the reason you smile in your sleep. the only one you call yours. i wanna hold your hand to the end. your my favoritest person in the whole world. (: i just love you. i love the connection we get with just a simple kiss, and we know we have something great with just that. i love holding your hand. i love feeling you in my hands, having you there TO touch.

i got two feet & a heartbeat.

im starting to feel like the bad guy...i hate being the bad guy...

i dont know what to do...im soo confussed and hurt. im running out of choices, scared of the ones im making, i know what i want but it seems to be impossible to grab anymore..im fighting for what i want and i will not stop until i get it. ill give up everything i am for it i want it that bad. all in all, you gotta give a little to get a little.

Valentines Day ♥

i wouldnt say im a big fan of valentines day. i dont think there should be one special day to 'celebrate' your love for someone..it should be an everyday thing if you love them. but this year..unlike any other i LOVE that i have my favorite person in the world, the love of my life, my other half to spend it with ♥ it makes this day so much more worth it. I Love You Andrew.

Results

ok so. yesterday at the doctors...i got my blood test and cat scan done && everything is normal supposidly. i had an iv in my arm for an hr and a half..i dont know whats goin on with me, i dont even think the doctors know whats wrong with me
and today with the new meds they gave me..my stomach still hurts, i woke up 4 this morning & felt like i was gunna puke but didnt, and my hands have been shakin since i woke up...*sigh* =/