Dad.
i know your trying to "be a good parent" but god damn. its to much. you tell me that i need to learn from my mistakes, how the hell am i suppose to learn from them if you wont even let me make any. let me learn all by myself, if i make a mistake then what do you care anyways!? its my mistake! quit barricading me and smothering me all the time. let me breath. let me live. let me go.. i do love you, and i miss you i really miss you. i miss who you used to be, i miss the you before you were corrupted by girl friends..you changed && im never gunna see that guy again ='/ it really hurts me, and the more i think about it i just....i dont care anymore. if thats who you wanna be, then whatever. im not gunna say shit cuz you are who you are, and if youd rather be brain washed by bimbo girl friends then hold your family together then i guess it goes to show who you really are anyways... your pushing me away. know that. its not just because i wanna "go out and party" or "do my own thing" or whatever else you think..i need to get away. youve lost my respect, and i know your my father and i should always respect you and this and that. but you need to give a little to get a little. youve started drinking again...i hate that shit....you know thats why we left you in the first place. so why continue to after we give you a second chance? you are the reason i hate alcohol so much. i drink very very rarely because i watch how you abuse it and i hate it.. Andrew drinks too. and i hate watching him do it..but i know he doesnt drink like you.. youve lost me... maybe after i leave you'll realize what youve taken for granted and what youve lost, what YOU'VE pushed away..youve already lost one daughter. now you just lost another. i love you, and im sorry. but you did it to yourself..