Andrew.
baby i love you. life makes sence with you. you make me feel great and beyond happy. the idea of a life without you is not only unbearable, its unimaginable. i could never ask want or need anybody ever but you. you make my world go round. i look forward to everyday with you ♥ you my love. and it just keeps growing. through thick and thin we should be. you are my heart and soul. my other half. you are the one i wanna see day and night. my obsession. my every want. my go in life. i give you my heart in hopes you keep it.you mean the world to me and so much more.to be without you is like drowning in a world of loneliness. i am so deeply in love with you and nothing could ever change that. i love you forever and always. ♥
you get so mad sometimes about my past. like you hate me all the time for what i did, sorry babe but i cant change it. its the past for a reason. i dont ever wanna look back on it, i made some bad god awful mistakes but so does everybody else so why only get pissed at me for what I did. your no more innocent than i am. but ill admit;i made one of the biggest mistakes of my life by lieing to you, i know. im sorry. im so sorry, i wish with everything that i am that i could take it back, i hate myself for doing it, for not thinking before i opened my mouth. and i also know you will never forgive me for it and i understand, in a way maybe i deserve it. i feel guilty as fuck for it. everyday i wake up and i hate me a little more for it and you remind me everyday about how stupid i am for doing that, that i fucked up something good. i understand that it bothers you. i just cant tell you how sorry i am. but you gotta stop. your breakin me down. and maybe thats your goal...but i feel more useless everytime you do. your trying to control me it seems, telling me who i can and cant talk to. what im gunna do. when i turn 18 yes im gunna get my tongue peirced. and dont tell me i cant, and dont be an asshole about it either. its me. im tired of people telling me what i can and cant do. im done being pushed aside for you.oh! and my red notebook it has nothing in there about me bitching. everytime your mad its like you have to find an excuse about my past or something i did that "your mad about" because im so awful arent i?. you say i act like your ex gf and you hate my family because theyre a bunch of druggies and you dont wanna be with someone whos associated with that. oh ok i get it now...your gunna make an excuse about the family to leave again? is that how it goes? im not my family. im not kayla. im me. open your eyes and look.